my birthday is next wednesday and im not even excited. woohoo, another year of total unhappiness. and plus, i have to get my wisdom teeth out the day after so thats not really anything to look forward to either.
i was thinking about it and i realized that all of my good friendships have ended so abruptly and so messy and it leaves me no hope for the future. why even get close to someone when you know youre just gonna get hurt?
i dont hate myself right now, im just not happy.
i just kinda gave up, stopped trying to make things better.